Middle of the Night Online Wanderings

Why is it we cave and do things we’ve told ourselves we won’t? Reasoning is a trait that distinguishes us from animals, or is it ignoring reasoning that is the determining factor? Wait…now I have to know. What is the difference between instinct and reasoning?

See what happens when I awaken after five hours of sleep, my resolve withering as I open the laptop? To soothe my guilt, I fumble for the switch to dim the blinding glare and cram another pillow between me and the headboard so I won’t slouch. My brain stops fussing because it knows I am beyond listening to reason. After all, five hours of uninterrupted sleep was a luxury  in the days of rising and shining to perform chosen professional duties. So, a few minutes to check Facebook in the middle of the night…not a big deal.

But it is. It’s ALWAYS major because I don’t float through social media in a dreamy state chuckling at fluff and awwing at cute cat photos…well…I don’t do ONLY that. I read seriously impactful articles by experts like one I got tangled up in last night on fashion habits that make one look old…er. For instance: don’t wear too-tight trendy pieces, but don’t wear baggy dated ones either;  wear makeup, but not too much, and make sure the shade is not antiquated; same with hosiery – flat not shiny, darker but not like tights; hairstyles should not be puffy, and long is okay, but not too long; jeans are fine (whew). The experts wasted my time on shoes. My feet do not function if I ignore their preferences. Time on accessories also unnecessary because being too matchy-matchy is not a concern of mine. I get a natural high finding an identical pair of earrings. And don’t even attack my bling. I will wear it if I want to, and on any kind or size of purse I decide.

“Instinct seems adapted merely to the purpose of animal existence, while reason is an attribute of progressive mind.” Henri Begson perhaps

This first appeared my Close to Home column in the 3/31/2021 issue of The Prospect-News.

About Teresa Pearson Lee

Retired after 33 years of teaching English and French (one year in private school in Memphis, TN and the rest in public school in Doniphan, MO. Enjoying new adventures - all those things I put off for lack of time, energy, now I can try them! Pottery, writing, traveling, camping, kayaking, dancing, listening to some of the best live music ever, and making lively new friendships. All christened with an appreciation for great red wine! Created and operated KC's on the Current, then sold it and managed it for new owners. You might still find me at the reservation desk when spring rolls around. Born and raised in St. Louis, MO near The Hill. Though a transplant to Southeast Missouri, still a city gal at the core with a deep love of the natural resources in these Ozark foothills. Currently I am a content coordinator for Poplar Bluff Living Magazine and a columnist/stringer for the local weekly The Prospect News. My rescue Siamese helps with most of the proofreading; he has a great ear. I relish the solitude easily had in the Mark Twain Forest but thoroughly enjoy lively outings for music, wine, conversation close to home or in my beloved hometown. Technology is my greatest challenge but so worth the shared connections. There may be a need for solitude but there is little loneliness. The material in this blog written by Teresa Lee is her property and cannot be used without express written consent to do so.
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